Incompetent Cervix and encirclage

After six months of comparatively hassle-free and easy pregnancy, I faced the first challenge. I used to wonder why I was so lucky to be free of nausea or any pregnancy related fatigue. But I had least idea about what was in store for me. We, in Kerala have a custom called ‘Kootikondupoval’ which is equal to the ‘ Godh bharai’ or ‘Valakappu’. The preggy’s parents come to her marital home with 7 varieties of eatables on the 7th month of pregnancy and take their daughter to her parental home. I was super excited to go to my own home and relish the pampering and love of my parents. But the happiness didn’t last long.

I had been having pain in my pubic bone for the days preceding the function. But after two days, the pain was unbearable and I was taken to the hospital. On checking doctor informed me that ‘os’ are open. Now this time I didn’t have the time to go back home and Google about the OS because doctor said that I needed to be admitted and a stitch needed to be applied to my uterus in order to prevent a pre term delivery or abortion. Doctor said that I had an incompetent cervix.


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“Had you not been diagnosed at the right time, you would have lost your first born. Your cervix had a two finger opening”, said the doctor later.

Back in the hospital room, I’m engaged with the universal tutor, Google. Google told me that incompetent cervix means that my Cervical tissues are weak and that cervix begins to dilate and efface before term, and hence the pain. OS is the opening of the cervix to the uterus.Applying the stitches in the cervix to hold it closed is called encerclage.

Normally encerclage is done earlier by about 12-14 weeks of pregnancy but in my case it was 28 weeks. This is a rarity but not the first of its kind. Applying a cerclage during the late pregnancy is called emergent cerclage. The patient will be given general or epidural anaesthesia. I was given general anaesthesia for the three pregnancies. Yes, you heard it right. For the three pregnancies I had to undergo encerclage. But it is not necessary that for everyone it is so. There are mothers who underwent encerclage for the first pregnancy but had a trouble free pregnancy further. This depends on the strength of your uterus.

There are three types of encirclages. We will find the difference and furthermore in the next post .

Read the previous posts on this topic

The test time- TVS and Obstetric scan

Initial days

Understanding the purple lines

Cherishing that tiny heart beat


Proud to live in the land of brilliance

Land of rapists, land of waste, land without security, ladies can’t go out alone, land without opportunities : A lot of adjectives have been added to our country lately. We have witnessed our youth apathetically proclaiming that I need to leave this godforsaken land, otherwise my life would not flourish. Media is busy celebrating Rahul Gandhi’s torn Kurta, Sasikala’s vile politics, celebrity deliveries  and similar news which provide them mileage and TRPs.  When a group of scientists took our nation to the top of the world, the news had to satisfy with a meagre mention of mere two minutes. While newspapers were brimming with news about Sasikala’s past, (well some gave a front page mention of the news) the news of launching 104 satellites in one go was not given due importance.isro-selfie_650x400_81487229126

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I really doubt how many of our so calle new generation knows about this news. In the social media’s where every controversial news gets viral, this feat was more or less forgotten. The fact that 101 out of 104 satellites belong to other countries reinstates the significance of our nation in the international arena. The picture shown above  was taken by our Polar Satellite Launch Vehicle  (PSLV ). While we share every daily ablutions on social media, proclaim every single incident in our life, would you mind sharing this beautiful awe-inspiring picture.

I have grown up hearing cruel jokes of Indian rockets coming back with the same speed as they were launched, by Indian comedians. Would they mind mentioning this milestone?

Chinese media proclaimed that Indians have reasons to be proud of. But do we realize this? We launched a lunar probe in 2008, we are the first Asian country to have an unmanned rocket orbit. All these was mentioned in the media of our rival country but we, as Indians don’t want to know it.

Take a break today and share this awesome pic as a token of respect to the group of people who made this possible. Media’s won’t care;  let social media do.

PS: Not all medias forgot this.


My love

I wrote this poem 15 years back when I was in throes of my first love. After a decade and a half I’m still smitten by this stubborn, obsessive, passionate, naughty, freaking awesome, sweet rascal. Love you beyond words Appu

I love him beyond words
I talk about him beyond thoughts
I think of him beyond the world
I need him beyond the life

Words are nothing when i express how much i feel for him
In the beginning of the horizon
In the end of eternity
I see only one person
Its him him only
Life love and lust
All my feelings are only for him

I procured him against destiny
Gods bowed down before our love
Destiny changed before our soul

In every footsteps
In every heart beats
In every breath
In every words
I express only one thing
I love him I love him I love him

For all those trod me for my love
For all those frowned at my love
For all those grimaces of time
I must say one thing
Beyond the time,
Beyond life
Beyond death
Beyond birth
He is mine

Waiting for years
To tie a knot
To come out triumphantly
To walk through the streets holding hand in hand
Searching for my fingers
To feel the touch of love

I am here undefeated unaffected
Waiting for that day…………….

Why give up on your life?

Suicide of students due to whatsoever reasons has been hot topic for social media, politicians and students themselves. Their pain and emotional trauma is objectified to a point where their photographs are hung at every nook and corner and discussions, debates and war cries to punish the culprits take place in areas pragmatically unaffected. A hero takes birth. Yes, their traumatic experience which led to a depression is perspicuous. Steps need to be taken to punish those who turned a blind eye on these students’ grievances but what will we gain if we glorify their act as a heroism. Notwithstanding the reality that the issues faced by them are grave. They were subjected to blatant partisanship but we are living in a land of heroes who fought till their last breath.

I can relate to them fully since I has been there once but life taught me a lesson to fight it or leave it. When I look back, I used to wonder what would  have been if I had given up on my life. My wonderful husband , my three precious kids, all wouldn’t have come to my life if I had ended it.  Instead of mulling over about the past let’s think about the future.

Our kids are trained to think that suicide is heroism or for all failures suicide is an easy way out through the entertainment media; Let it be Movies, daily Sops, books or whatever media. The society tends to banish people who are involved in any scandal which forces them to assort to extreme measures. Our society is so image conscious that humanity and human values take the backseat.

A child who has not heard ‘No’ during his childhood will not be prepared to face rejection on growing up. Why do we mollycoddle our kids so much that they end up being delicate darlings. I wouldn’t say that I’m a perfect parent but among so many imperfections, I would not want to bring up my kids as so delicate that they give up on their life.

Instead of creating hartals that stagnate out life, conduct awareness programs. Instead of glorifying suicide as heroism, tell the kids that they were brilliant, had they fought a little more they would have been with us. Where does the word suicide come to our kid’s mind?

A lion would not think of committing suicide if it could not defeat a prey. It fights , fights and fights till it succeeds. If solution to failure or ailments is suicide Stephen Hawkins would not have been living in this world. Not all people get everything on a golden platter. Fight till you succeed and don’t give up on your life.

The test time- TVS and Obstetric scan

The last post was a short one. Apart from the headache which the physician misdiagnosed as migraine, my first trimester was hassle free. The three months came to an end faster than any other pretty  since my UPT was done at two and a half months. “On completion of third month we will do TVS and Obstetric Scan,” doc said. I stared at her in horror. My overestimated self-proclaimed vocabulary seemed to come a cropper under those words applied in daily life. Unable to admit that I didn’t understand what she just said, I smiled and took leave. First thing I did on reaching home was Google TVS and Obstetric Scan. The first link came was that of TVS motor company. Cursing the stars in revised my search and typed “TVS pregnancy”. There came the answer, thanks to babycenter. There I got to know that TVS is Transvaginal Scan. I was wondering how it would be  done. On further research it became clear that it would be done by inserting a probe inside the vagina. The probe would be covered with a condom to avoid infections. Okay, so that much is clear. Now Obstetric scan. As you guessed I didn’t even know the spelling. All thanks to auto correction, I managed to type the name. Obstetric Scan is Ultrasonography used in pregnancy which brings me to the knew knowledge that Obstetrics is a branch of medicine and surgery related to child birth and midwifery. My overconfidence of being knowledgeable about every ‘science’thing was reduced to ashes.



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Transvaginal Scan

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The first pregnancy is a time we are introduced to many acronyms. After completion of third month, I went in for the obstetric scan aka Ultra sound scan. The nursing staff asked me my LMP. I stared at her as if I saw a ghost. She, seemingly used to such reactions, clarified with the expansion Last Menstrual Period. Thanks to the white soul. Else, I would have to excuse myself and Google again. I sadly and shamefully one of those who were reluctant to say “I don’t know”. The bravest thing to do is to learn how to say “I don’t know” instead of pretending that you know everything.

Time came for the first ultra sound scan. The radiologist, after taking forever to examine, showed me the heart beat. A tiny blip. I felt as if God is winking at me reminding me to cherish the moment, to freeze it in my memory. My first feeling of motherhood. My first baby. His /her heartbeat. I couldn’t believe that it was real. I felt as if I’m floating on thin air. I wanted him to be with me. My partner in crime, partner in pregnancy in this case. His expression was one of the most priceless moments in my life.

Don’t you agree with me? Oh my God. I’m getting emotional. It might seem unprofessional but I need the moment to resurface. Even after experiencing it thrice. So folks, let’s see next week.Next week you will see the one thing, the revelation that changed my life forever.

You can read the related posts here

Understanding the purple lines

Cherishing that tiny heart beat

Initial days

Initial days

So we have seen he pregnancy tests last time. Now, the sickness. Pregnancy is synonymous to morning sickness. Get up in the morning brush your teeth ‘Thup’. Drink Tea, coffee or milk, Thup. Eat something cook something, smell something Thup, Thup, thup. There can be several reasons behind this like increased hormonal level, decreased blood sugar etc. Level and type of sickness can be different for different pregnancies. In most cases, vomiting stops by the fourth or fifth month, which makes me feel that BETA HcG is the reason behind this.

Minor sickness can be ignored and cured with home remedies. Having lime water helps sometimes. Fry cumin seeds and boil water putting these fried seeds. This helps in some cases. Smelling lemon helps some ladies. Put a kalimirch in your  But these are all relative. Sickness during pregnancy is a tricky thing. We never know what helps for each person. If you feel that you are dehydrated, do consult your Gyn.

I had severe headache during the first trimester. As mentioned before I had no idea that I was pregnant and took medications for migraine. Thankfully nothing dangerous happened to the baby even if migraine medicines are not advisable during pregnancy.

It is said that we shouldn’t reveal the news of pregnancy to anyone till 3 months. This is because first three months, chances of miscarriage are more. If you find unusual spotting do consult a Gyn.

That’s all for today guys. See ya next week

Checkout related posts here

Cherishing that tiny heart beat

Understanding the purple lines

Cashless or Cash less

I am a PayPal account holder. Yesterday I got a mail which went like this


I clicked the link but it opened with a URL with a different domain. It wasn’t an HTTPS link. Hence I didn’t login but sent a mail to the PayPal people instead. I got a mail informing me that my account is perfect and the other mail was sent by some cyber frauds. The following is the body of the mail. I believe this holds true for all online wallets. Hence I share it here

Did you know that approximately 90% of all email sent worldwide falls
into the spoof, phishing, spam, and general junk category?  By
submitting reports of suspicious email to us you are helping to address
this problem.

To help you identify suspicious email, below are a few things that
PayPal will never do in an email communication:

1. Send an email to: “Undisclosed Recipients” or more than one email
2. Ask you to download a form or file to resolve an issue
3. Ask to verify an account using personal information such as name,
date of birth, driver license, or address
4. Ask to verify an account using bank account information such as bank
name, routing number, or PIN number
5. Ask to verify an account using credit card information such as credit
card number or type, expiration date, ATM PIN number, or CVV2 security
6. Ask you for your security question answers without displaying each
security question you created
7. Ask you to ship an item, pay a shipping fee, send a Western Union
Money Transfer, or provide a  tracking number before the payment
received is available in your transaction history

Any time you receive an email about activity to your PayPal account, the
safest way to confirm the validity is to login directly to the PayPal
website and review the relevant section. If you see suspicious activity,
you would do the following:

1. Open a new browser and type in “
2. Log in to your PayPal account.
3. Click “Activity” near the top of the page.
4. Click on the suspicious transaction to expand the details.
5. Click “Report this as unauthorized”
6. Complete the report process on the next screen.

It’s sophisticated to be cashless but make sure you won’t go cash less with a simple mistake. Share this to maximum people to prevent your friends from being cheated